So where the heck are you these days bro?

Since I headed off to NT and travelled for what seemed like a short period (3 months isn’t short) exploring my heart, mind, and soul. It all started with an innocent trip to the Blue Mountains to meet a friend – someone I was totally drawn to – who was throwing a doof party up there (exactly on my birthday).

3 months ago .. no wait 4 months now …

It’s amazing for me to look back on that trip as this tipping point for me. As this movement in my heart and soul to something new and different.

As of March, I finally got in contact with my biological mother – Cathy – which has been an amazingly raw, true, reconnecting, and amazing experience. She’s a pretty special person to me and as we talk more and more I feel that I am reconnecting with a part of my life that was lost – Quint Lee Jahraus. It’s tough to explain the experience of being adopted and not knowing your biological mother – where you come from – who you were a product of – but now all these things are coming together for me. Deep inside.

Then when I was least expecting my life to stay as it was I was graced on Critical Mass night in Melbourne with the beauty of one red headed womyn named Dan. She was told that I would be on the mass by my old room mate Greta. Dan ended up staying at my house that night and hung out at the Free Big Breakfast that Sunday. Somewhere deep I knew there was a strong connection between Dan and I – I was falling for her and couldn’t stop thinking about her after she left.

One conversation led to another. One connection lead to something deeper and I found myself heading to a doof party Dan was throwing in the Blue Mountains for my birthday (no no not held for my birthday but on the same night as).

Turning 31 has crossed this new phase in my life – more spiritual, more intense, more beautiful, and heaps more learning. Finding something old and deeper. Something rooted.

Within days Dan and I were talking about heading up to the Dreaming Festival and then beyond. A bag, two thumbs, and plenty of hitch hiking stories led us up the east coast to Woodford (near Brisbane) for my second dose of The Dreaming Festival. My heart was falling fast for the connection that I feel deeply for Danielle. Something I haven’t felt in a long time.

The stories along the road seemed to all focus on community, finding love, sharing experiences, and appreciating what you have. Figuring out what you need in life. Listening to your heart rather than what we expect should happen.

Dan and I travelled all over northern Australia making our way up the east coastline, across to NT, into Alice Springs, Uluru, and then down the centre back to the Blue Mountains. Each moment seemed to create more amazing experiences for us along the way. My heart seemed to grow more and more at each stop, turn, and move for her. For my spirit. Dan and I taking every opportunity to really listen to the path we were being led on… path? – more like a massive journey!

Before I knew it I was back in Melbourne to new things, but something was missing for me. New people in my old house – and yet I felt something was different. My heart had growth, was more raw, things were different and new, and I had left my heart in the Blue Mountains.

So now where are you?

As I have always done – followed my heart back to the Blue Mountains where I officially moved to on Tuesday. Found my heart again – found Dan again. She is a really special, beautiful, and amazingly artistic lady. We have this true connection and understanding that makes me feel stronger, supported, and loved. Following my heart up here to see Dan and now living with her has put everything in perspective for me – true – raw – loving – special.

I’m really in love with this crazy zanny Australian womyn who brings some really awesome things into my life. Sometimes I feel as though when she looks at me – she looks deeper than just Shane on the outside. But more like Jahraus (where I came from) on the inside.

It’s great being back up here – near the trees, having space to think, and taking odd journey’s through the mountain-side by bike, foot, or spirit. It’s great to be living with Dan and sharing her and this space up here in the mountains.

The people here in Springwood are pretty special and magical. All on their own journeys and yet totally open to share and grow together and separate. I’ve moved to The House of Intense Discussion. Ah just what I needed.